I think I am going to have to see a doctor this week sometime, or maybe next week and tell someone how I am feeling.
I have to admit something now......I am obsessed with food, eating and diets. Food consumes my thoughts about80-90% of my day - I wake up and think about what I am going to eat, I get to work and think about the snack trolley coming round, then it's lunch, then it's dinner and this is every day. I cannot go into a bar without looking at the menu, I cannot go on a day out without thinking about when and where I am going to eat, I get an unusual amount of pleasure from going to the supermarket and looking at/being around food. I am always trying a diet, then failing and giving up.
My mind does not feel like my own. I feel consumed and swamped by food, it controls me and my daily life. I don't feel any pleasure from doing 'normal' things like being around the man I love, I can't get excited about going on holiday, having a long weekend coming up, birthdays etc, but I get so excited when I am going to eat out in a restaurant. Nothing really makes me happy anymore other than eating.
I feel sick and demented, I feel out of control (and I have big issues with control), I feel powerless and I feel insane. I am sick.
I have no idea what to do, where to turn, who to talk to. Who will listen to me, who will take me seriously, who will believe me?
I feel in a downwards spiral.
girlygadgetgirl
Sounds like you're bored.
I recommend changing your job. I am currently suffering from job boredom, and can't wait to start a new one.
All I do is eat, but then I'm a skinny thing that never puts on weight, so it doesn't really matter so much, but yes, it IS tedious only ever thinking about the next feeding time. I used to have an eating problem, and an obsession with calorie counting and wanting to know exactly what I was eating.
My boyfriend sometimes calls me OCD because of my obsession with lining my food up neatly on the supermarket conveyor in a specific order.
Seriously, I think you could be bored with your job/life, as obsessive eating is a very common side effect of boredom.
Try changing your routine. When you get home, go out for a walk, and don't take any money (so you can't buy food!), then think about looking for a new job.
During the day, wear a fat elastic band round your wrist, then when you think about snacking, twang it. You'll have a horrible red wrist, but you'll associate snacking with pain!